....NOT.
I just read something by a cancer survivor which was basically a romantic love letter to her cancer for teaching her so much. K, that is nice...glad she had an epiphany. It is one way to deal with it.
If I had cancer (which my chemo can actually cause), I would be hating on it and smashing its evil little cancerous head into the ground. There would be not one thing I would be grateful for about it. It would be the enemy invader and me the warrior. What I would be grateful for would be the days I would wrestle from it.
I think it's okay to do the happy crystal fuzzy warm feeling stuff, but it is definitely not for me. I would like to go out like an old tired warrior, knowing I put up my best fight to stay here. I was horrified when I began chemo for lupus, aware that every day, probably for the rest of my life, I would ingest a sort of poison to lower my immune system and without it, I would not live...but now that medicine is my weapon. Lupus is the enemy, and will never, ever be my friend.
My name is Joan McMillan and this blog is, as Emily Dickinson says, "my letter to the world." I am currently working on a nonfiction book about the murder of a young woman, Asha Veil, born Joanna Dragunowicz, and her unborn daughter, Anina, on September 9, 2006. My book is meant to honor her life and illuminate the need to create a safer world for women and children.
To read an excerpt from the book, please click on the following link:
ashaveilbook.blogspot.com
An excerpt from The Pleasure Palace, my romantic comedy, can be found here:
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