I saw my psychiatrist in Palo Alto yesterday, and had concerns about not sleeping for two days, and having eye twitches, both signs that bipolar 2 disorder is rearing up. She said she was not surprised, as my brain has been walloped with massive stress regarding the addict in my life: when it is someone very close to you, it is terribly hard to detach and I spent endless nights worrying and driving around trying to find them. This, plus just the "simple" stress of parenting, trying to find time to work on my book, continued grief (which never really seems to go away, though it is down to a dull roar and I am learning to live with it, like a birthmark), etc. Dr. R. increased my Lamictal 50 percent, up to 300 mg., which she says is around the full dose. I already feel better and the eye twitches have stopped. I am able to think more clearly, and am back to working on the book. It takes a lot of fortitude to plow forward with this, but I am working.
My name is Joan McMillan and this blog is, as Emily Dickinson says, "my letter to the world." I am currently working on a nonfiction book about the murder of a young woman, Asha Veil, born Joanna Dragunowicz, and her unborn daughter, Anina, on September 9, 2006. My book is meant to honor her life and illuminate the need to create a safer world for women and children.
To read an excerpt from the book, please click on the following link:
ashaveilbook.blogspot.com
An excerpt from The Pleasure Palace, my romantic comedy, can be found here:
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