First solo, breakthrough

I am starting, slowly, to get back to the level of physical (and emotional) strength I had before this past Fall.  It took everything out of my body to go on this path. It is taking all of my will, strength, determination, and faith to pull my life and health back together again. I have decided that those who abandoned me when I started chemotherapy are not welcome in my life, at least not unless they are willing to come to me and talk things over..then maybe. If you cannot stand beside someone for the war, you are not entitled to the armistice. A lot of wonderful people supported me in this time...people who lost loved ones to terrible things, and who still helped me to the bathroom to throw up, helped me comb out my hair when it was falling out, and even helped me bathe and dress and take care of Thistle. I am forever indebted to these people.  I am in increasingly excellent health because I did not have to struggle on my own.

Actually the above paragraph is meant for a very specific circumstance.  You know who you are; you know what we both did to create the situation; I have acknowledged my part in it and apologized sincerely...part of apologizing in my world is to make amends also, which is to honor another's  need for silence, and to never revert to the behavior that caused problems in the first place.  Still, I am willing to talk if that time ever comes; I accept if it never does.  People are very precious to me and I don't just run through life discarding anyone.

I had a breakthrough in Haitian dance today...it was as if all the parts of my body, so disparate feeling for so many months, suddenly all came together and my teacher was blown away (we were doing serpentine movements, during which I was imagining I was a timber rattler...I was told six months ago that I have a mean streak, so why not take control of that and channel its power into dance?) My teacher complimented me in front of the whole class! I cried on the way home...after all this, I have avoided another scythe from the Grim Reaper once again.  One day he will come for me and it will be my time, but not now. Now is my time to come all the way back to health in all ways.

I am planning my first bellydance solo dance, and wanted to share some of the moves I will be using, as well as the song. This is Fat Chance Bellydance, performing first a fast and then a slow set; the slow set is performed to the music I will be using for my own solo...I am determined to do those series of backbends!  The song is "Aicha" by Khaled.  One reason I like it is because I can understand the lyrics; I think it's important