March Elegy
All night I pace, insomnia
beneath a sky traveled by clouds.
The sharp wind shreds them to pale rags.
Sometimes the moon reveals her face,
a white skull floating in a sea-black sky.
Treesembedded in their silence. Far off, a fox barks, perhaps the one with a pelt of silver; her paw prints mark the creek’s edge. Closer, an owl sounds its bass notes, deep, echoing, a tunnel of slow song woven from this night, these shadows.
“How do I go on?” I ask,
as if the sleeping forest can hear me, as if the trees might say,
“Grief is a mountain. Climb it on your hands and knees,” as if the creek in its stone bed whispers,
“Bow to the mystery. Warm your hands at its cold fire.”
Throw a pebble into the dark and the creek will answer briefly, then return to its ceaseless braiding and unbraiding, its glassy ribbons of water.
Tell me how to hold this solitude. Make me a branch in that water, close to the granite ledge where the cougar sleeps in her den. They say she is pregnant, her belly large under the tawny pelt, inching towards that time.
Let me borrow the gold of her eyes, her sheathed claws.
She makes a soft nest in her den and waits.
Teach me to translate her patience
as the wind speaks no familiar language
and the moon arrays herself in a robe of stars
until your grey and silent ghost slips from my heart and
My name is Joan McMillan and this blog is, as Emily Dickinson says, "my letter to the world." I am currently working on a nonfiction book about the murder of a young woman, Asha Veil, born Joanna Dragunowicz, and her unborn daughter, Anina, on September 9, 2006. My book is meant to honor her life and illuminate the need to create a safer world for women and children.
To read an excerpt from the book, please click on the following link:
ashaveilbook.blogspot.com
An excerpt from The Pleasure Palace, my romantic comedy, can be found here:
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