Asthma improving

My asthma seems to be improving on the 80 mg. I have been taking since the IV steroids in the hospital (125 mg., a few days after an 80 mg injection of solumedrol). My body feels like a rag doll that has had all the stuffing pulled out of it. Asthma attacks like the ones I have been going through for the last year truly tire me out. I have not been able to do much this week except get through each day the best I can. At least I do not feel my lungs are lined with glass and that no air can get in--because that is what my attacks are like. And my peak flow is up). I will be on steroids for some time. I do not like to take them, but my lungs cannot heal without this treatment.

I have come full circle as I recuperate to reading some wonderful books by Dr. Bernie Siegel; I used to read these and listen to his healing audiotapes for many years when I was very ill with lupus. I am reassured by his kind words. He is truly a healer (my sister came to know him personally and we corresponded a little after her death). One thing that struck me in my reading today is, "Live within the knowledge of your mortality."

We are all so blessed with time on this earth, but such a short time in the grand scheme of things. As I look out the window of my house, I see redwood trees that were there the day I bought it; they were there before the house was built; if all goes well for them, they will be here long after I am gone. I am the more temporary part of my landscape equation!

The important part today is, for me, to be grateful for my day and to try to create 24 hours of which I can be proud at bedtime--whether that is because I chose to speak kindly to another when I could have easily chosen otherwise, slowed down, smiled at someone, took care of something regarding my health, chose not to worry. That is what I can do with my precious 24 hours.